...and now is one of those times. So, everything has been super disappointing lately. I'm really frustrated at the lack of progress I feel like I'm making. I'm frustrated about some stuff personally. I'm frustrated because I can't find a freaking job. I'm frustrated because my dog is psycho and we can't figure out how to help her. I'm really frustrated because something I wanted totally fell through. I'm extremely frustrated at how much I underestimated my calories last week. I thought I was being generous enough to be close, little did I know that I was still like 1000 off- for ONE MEAL!!!!
It's really hard to go out and do my running or yoga when I'm having such a hard time with stuff because I really want to see progress and it just makes everything worse when I don't. I feel so much pressure to do well and reach my goals. I don't feel like I'm very good at anything so it's really frustrating and annoying when I can't even reach goals that I set for myself. I mean, it's really of no consequence if I miss my goals but it's really bothersome to me.There are a list of things I wish I could change/fix but alas, I cannot. Apparently, I can't even change things that I should be able to. I feel like it's impossible to be as bad at running as I am but maybe it's not.
I think perhaps my stress comes from trying so hard and not being able to cut it. You'd think I was gonna tryout for the Olympic team or something but nope, I'm not. This is also the reason I wasn't a piano major, which I would've loved, or why I don't really sing anymore. What's more disappointing, knowing you're not good enough at something or trying your hardest and then finding out you can't cut it?
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